So... Yeah... I guess life is going okay.
You know, being an artist isn't always fun. I guess neither is being a critic, but who's to say? I think being a food critic would be fun, though all of them are probably really fat. Still, who doesn't like food? Anyway... It's lonely being a classical artist and opera singer when you're in a really hick town where no one appreciates it. It kind of weeds out a lot of opportunities on friends. Eh, maybe it's just me. A lot of people tell me I'm delusional and always think I'm right. That's not really true though, I know when I'm wrong, and I say I'm sorry.
Sorry isn't really good enough these days, is it? Has anyone but I noticed that? When you say you're sorry, it just kind of bounces off, no matter how sincere. I don't like being wrong or sorry, but when I know I have to be I am. But nowadays, that doesn't even matter. It's like when you do something wrong they'd rather have revenge than an apology. Please, someone tell me.. Is it just me, or the people I'm hanging around with? I don't like it much at all.
On a lighter note, I have some money in the bank and already paid my first submission to my program abroad. Time is passing by slowly.. I applied for about 10 jobs now, and I haven't heard back from a single one. I really need one if I want to go to Europe.
My head kind of hurts.
I don't mean to ramble on like this, but I really need to get a few things out of my system. I don't like it when people are mean, and a lot of people have been lately. For those who have been nice and helped me, you know who you are, and thanks for being such good friends and people.
I think my future may just contain friends who are artistic. I can't really keep friends in any other places, because they expect complete devotion and 100% of my time, which I can't give them. Besides, I hate talking on the phone. It's just so dumb, and it eats up your money.
Maybe a nap will make my head feel better.
In a nutshell, boys and girls, Miss Arsenic's life has momentarily got her down. Don't worry or anything, it's not like I'm suicidal or mutilate or anything. XD
I'm just going to probably pout for a while and seek laughter and open ears. In the meantime, I'm going to try to continue submitting some new music. Try is the keyword, I've got serious writer's block at the moment.
You know... I could really go for watching an episode of Roseanne. I'll try to keep that in mind. She always makes me laugh, don't ask why. She's just funny and kind of reminds me of my mom. ^_^
I'll be around. If anyone's interested, feel free to chat with me here or on AIM. I'm always ready for mindless chit-chat or a new friend.
In the meantime, all of you stay beautiful ^ ^
- Lady Arsenic <3
DarkStarfire
Take care, girl, don't push too hard o_o
I know what a real sorry feels like to say and a "sorry, I hit you *playing Wii*". And the real sorry is difficult to say, but for all people I said that, they felt relieved. Some people though are more difficult to handle...
Nah, people when are angry say ridiculous stuff, like you always think you're right. Just don't take them serious, because just you know yourself.
I think a good nap will solve the problem! :3 Some pills, maybe.
True friends understand you're busy. Gosh damn o_O you're only 16 and do all that stuff? Make sure you reserve some time for youself, okay?
Listening to Digi Charat's, Suzumiya Haruhi no Yuuutsu's and Lucky Star's songs always make me happy ^^
I wish better days for you :] if you ever needs help, I'd be pleased to try to help you.
Byebye >3/
LadyArsenic
Thanks for the advice, DarkStarfire. Lately it's been a little difficult to find the truth. =/
I took my nap and ate something, so my head, at the moment, is a little better. But unfortunately for me, Roseanne is not on tonight. v.v *Bummerbummerbummer*
I'll do my best to just keep chuggin' along. Thank you for your kind words, and I'll hope to hear from you soon.
- Lady Arsenic <3